Baby Girl

Well, This is our little baby girl.

Sorry it has taken me so long to post any pictures....You can say thanks for these to Alan, he scanned them in for me and did the cool arrows and everything. What a sweet big brother I have.

My favorite picture is by far the profile one. She was so cute when they took that picture. She had been laying on her side, and then she stretched her legs out all the way on my tummy, and then she stretched her arms way above her head on my tummy as well. It was funny because I could feel her do it! I of course wouldn't have known WHAT she was doing had I not seen it, but it was fun to see her move around and relax. After she stretched out, she rolled over to her back and just fell asleep. (I think anyway, Cuz she stopped moving, kicked her legs up and lay her head down.) It was cute.

Anyway. As most of my family knows now, there is a tiny flaw in our perfect little girl. Her heart hasn't formed properly, so only half of it works. Luckily, while she is in utero, it doesn't affect her negatively, I guess my placenta is supplying all her oxygen. But, once she's born, the problem is fatal.

Because of this, the past few days have of course been hard. Not to mention that there have been difficulties for Dacia and for Alan and Jen, and that only compounds the hurt that I know everyone is probably feeling for all the different situations out there.

Something I have come to realize though, (and it only took me a day or two), is just how blessed Topher and I really are. Not an hour has gone by since we found out, that we haven't been called by someone in the family to see how we were doing. Karen rushed to our apartment to keep us company, bought us Taco Bell and brought a sweet Rachel to cheer us up. Dacia came over, even though she was having troubles of her own and kept me company, knowing that no one else could do it better than her. Alan and Jen were immediate to offer to come get me to spend time with me, even though they were having problems as well! Topher's parents brought us K.F.C. and lots of research. Dacia ordered us pizza for lunch the next day and had it delivered to the house. Mom dropped her weekend plans and said she'd be here over the weekend for me. And today, I came into work after another rotten morning and there were beautiful yellow gerbers sitting on my desk from my sweet sister Emi and her adorable boys.

If nothing else, than this has just taught me how important family really is. I have an amazing family that sacrifices so much for me. That goes out of their way however they can, to put a smile on my face or just to let me know I'm loved. I have a family that I know is praying for me throughout the whole of every day. They are so wonderful and supportive and the best friends I could possibly ask for. I also know that I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and Topher very much. I lost count of how many prayers I have said since Tuesday, but even if I was completely devastated and blubbering like a baby, the instant I thought Heavenly Father's name and asked him for his help, I immediately felt comforted. I know he is with me and Topher and that he is watching over Sophie, making sure she's o.k. I know that no matter what happens, she is our baby girl forever and ever, no matter how much time we actually get with her on Earth. This isn't to say by any means that I'm ok with the way things are, and I'm happy go lucky. But like Dacia's "thoughts" blog reminded me, I can have faith that sophie will be healthy and happy, but if not, I can have faith that whatever happens, the Lord is in it, and it will be for my good, Topher's good, and more importantly, for Sophie's good.

Thank you so much to my wonderful family. My sweet, beautiful, wonderful, caring sisters. My perfect and wonderful mommy. My big adorable brother and My loving, and caring dad. Thank you so much to my adorable neice and nephews who are so eager to give me hugs and kisses, (even AARON!!), and thanks so much Karen for your constant friendship and support.
Thanks for your prayers! Please don't stop sending them our way.
Love you all more than you could imagine.
Love Buggy, Topher and Sophie


It's a Girl!!

I had my big ultrasound yesterday. I was lucky enough to have my adorable husband there as well as my sweet Mom. Topher's parents came too and that was not as uncomfortable as I had feared! Instead it was actually really sweet to see how excited they both were. I know it was really special for them.
I will post the ultrasound pictures tonight sometime. But I thought I'd write out the blog now.
Baby girl looks adorable and happy. She moved around stretching her arms and legs against my tummy. She waved at us once or twice. Gave us a thumbs up sign once. Hid from us numerous times. And laid on her side with her hand under her head. She looked adorable and healthy!
Topher and I went out to Old Navy last night and Topher spent 50$ on ADORABLE baby clothes. We bought a little dress, two shirts, a courduroy skirt and the cutest winter coat for her first winter. Topher then took me out to dinner to celebrate baby girl! It was a lot of fun.
This morning, I went through the box of baby clothes mom brought me and I couldn't stop smiling. There were outfits I've seen me wearing in different pictures. And maybe even a few I've seen on Dacia in pictures. It was so special to think that my little girl will get to be in some of those same outfits!!
Before I left for work, I watched the Ultrasound video we'd gotten. It was fun because it was just 5 minutes of her moving around, stretching and some cute profile shots. When we did the 30 minute ultrasound it turned out that the video hadn't been working!! So they did a second ultrasound just for a couple minutes so I could get some baby girl on tape. All in all, it was a great morning.
Then...I came to work and got a call from my Dr. saying that the Ultrasound technician thought something might be amiss with the baby's heart. I have to go in and see a specialist in Ogden. I guess he's really hard to see, especially with the Holidays next week. So my appointment with him is November 27th. I have no idea what they'll find or say, my Dr. didn't really give me a lot of information. But, either way, no matter what happens, she really is a beautiful happy little baby. I just know it.
Since mostly it's just my family that reads this, please pray for Topher's and my little baby girl. Just pray for her health and for her to be happy. That would be wonderful. I know everything will be just fine if she is in everyone's prayers.
I love you all!
Thank you for the prayers that I know are already coming in our direction!



1. My Rock Star Name (fist pet and current car): Kat Tercel

2. My Gangsta Name (fave ice cream flavor and fave cookie): Vanilla Fudge Oreo

3. My "fly" guy/girl name (1st initial of 1st name and 1st 3 letters of last name): A. And...wow that is way super lame

4. My detective name (fave color and fave animal): Blue Siberian Tiger

5. My soap opera name (middle name and city where you were born): Ann Blue Springs

6. My Star Wars Name (1st 3 letters of your last name and 1st 2 letters of your first name): Andal

7. My Superhero name (2nd fave color and fave drink with "The" in front): The Yellow Apple

8. My Nascar name (Grandpas' first names): Carl Juergen

9. My stripper name (name of your fave cologne/perfume and your favorite candy): Romance Gummi Raspberries

10. My Witness Protection Name (Mother's and Father's middle names): Anita Frederika Marion (same as Emi's)


Once a Cougar...Always a Cougar

I have always wanted to BYU-Idaho....and I just KNOW that one day, I will be able to take classes there...
But, I wanted to tell you all, because I was proud of myself, That I recently applied to Fall/Winter 2008 semester and I was accepted. :)yay for me!!! I'm telling you guys...I am MEANT to one day go there...and one day...I will.
Anyways...spare me your criticisms if you have them. I am excited and don't want to hear any pessimism..I have enough of that on my own. I might just take online courses and stay in Utah..but somehow..I am going to hold my position at the best of best schools!
Thank you! Congratulations are welcome! ;)


my creepy husband...



The Buggy Morphing Machine...

Topher thinks the Kristen Bell and Lindsay Lohan morphs look the coolest/most like me...
weird eh?
but i know you all want to try it now!!!





Ooo Look at my Celebrity Look Alikes!!



One Can Only Hope...

I can only cross my fingers that my future daughter will be this cool...


My Topher the Righteous One...

I thought this was funny that Topher came out as a good guy...a good guy with supposedly not enough muscle...ridiculous. haha.

Your Score: Jinx/Felix

You scored 25 Size, 25 Evilness, 72 Charm!

You have enough skill to pass the agent training. But you lack the physical ability to be considered a 00 Agent. But in America, you would make a great CIA agent. This fits the profile of Jinx from Die Another Day and Felix Leiter who appears throught the Bond series, but last appeared in Licence To Kill. You make a trusted ally to the Brittish Secret Service and are greatly respected.

Link: The James Bond Personality Test written by squee8174 on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

My Husband is cooler than me...

This is who Topher would be if he were a Bond...kinda funny. Cuz his scores are really close and really even for all the different Bonds...so pretty much my husband is very un-Bondish. bummer
Your results:
You are Daniel Craig

Daniel Craig
George Lazenby
Sean Connery
Roger Moore
Pierce Brosnan
Timothy Dalton
The sixth actor to play Bond in the movies promises to be a more realistic, down to earth and not so perfect James Bond, while still being a sexy womanizer.

Click here to take the James Bond Personality Quiz

If I were a Bond...

If I were a man and could then be a Bond is probably a better way of putting it...hehe. Well, If iwere capable of being a Bond, then this is who I would be. Sort of disappointing...I was really hoping for Timothy Dalton. :(

Your results:
You are Roger Moore

Roger Moore
Daniel Craig
Timothy Dalton
Sean Connery
George Lazenby
Pierce Brosnan
The third actor to play Bond in the movies was more light-hearted and humorous. At the same time he was a charismatic ladies man.

Click here to take the James Bond Personality Quiz

Bond's Arch Enemy!!

I saw this post on Alan's blog and had to of course do it seeing as how I'm slightly obsessed with James Bond. Muahaha. I all the sudden feel like a guilty person though. I can't believe I betrayed Bond!

Your Score: Alec Trevelyan

You scored 50 Size, 44 Evilness, 72 Charm!

Traitor! You were once good, but became corrupt and have the ability bring others your way. You are a great foe and on the MI6 top 10 list. A character similar to you would be Alec Trevelyan aka 006, prior to your default to the other side you were Bond's partner. Now your plans to get revenge on your former employers will surely bring the world to its knees. You have the qualities required for an MI 6 agent, but your susceptbility to corruption and evil tendencies makes you a potential risk.

Link: The James Bond Personality Test written by squee8174 on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test


Jane Austen Quiz!

I love Jane Austen books and movies! I saw this quiz on Emi's blog and decided to do it. So...since this character is in the same movie as Emily's character...does that mean we're opposites? hmmm...i will say though that I never really thought I was a very impatient person. oh well. :) i want to watch this movie again now to know more about the characters!

I am Marianne Dashwood!

Take the Quiz here!

:: M A R I A N N E ::

You are Marianne Dashwood of Sense & Sensibility! You are impulsive, romantic, impatient, and perhaps a little to vocal in your honesty. You enjoy romantic poetry and novels, and play the pianoforte beautifully. To boot, your singing voice is captivating. You feel deeply, and love passionately.


Buggy's ABC's

A - Attached or Single: Happy to be very attached to my adorable husband. I'm also very attached to my family.
B - Best Friend: Topher is the absolute best friend I could have ever asked for. Aside from Topher would be my Mommy. She's always been a best friend, but never until just recently have I realized how much I need and want to talk to her all the time about everything...I probably call her twice a day. sorry mom! the DAysh, (sorry if this offends any other siblings...like Alan said, it might seem mean to "choose") but Daysh is one of the only people I can be myself around 100%. I think I've had more fun with her than with anyone else. She's also been close with me through all the hardest times in my life. And I loved loved loved living with her. Those might be my absolute closest friends, but my whole family, especially my sisters, (including Jen, you are my sister!) are my best friends. I love spending time with them and there isn't much I keep from any of them.
C - Cake or Pie: Definitely pie. I love apple pie and I love peach pie. Not only do I love pie, but it's made even better with some vanilla ice cream on the side. :) mmm mmm good.
D - Drink of Choice: Normally it would be Apple Juice. But lately I've been wanting a lot of Orange Tangerine juice. Ooo, and Also, Strawberry Milk. That stuff is tasty.
E - Essential Item: At the moment food. I always have to have something small I can snack on or I get sick. Also chapstick, especially in the winter. My lips get so dry! What else...probably my phone sadly because I hate to be out of touch with people. Oh, and especially at the moment, my book Pride and Prejudice. I can't put it down!
F - Favorite Color: Blue and Yellow have always been my favorites but I'm liking green more and more.
G - Gummi Bears or Worms: Both are alright. I really like gummy worms in those silly Halloween pudding cups that have the oreos and the pudding and worms. Those are super tasty.
H - Hometown: Probably Farmington because that's where I lived the longest.
I – Indulgence(s): Oreos and Milk. Raspberry concretes from Neilsen's. Cheese Fries from Jake's. Long Hot baths with candles and bubbles and a book. That is the best!J - January or July: Definitely January. July is fun because of the holidays and fireworks and barbecues, but it's so so hot! And I hate the heat. Maybe it's those years of driving a car with no a/c. But I love January cuz its right after Christmas and New years and you've just spent time with family and friends. PLus i think the snow is beautiful.
K - Kids: I definitely want kids...after the first three months of pregnancy I no longer want 7 that's for sure. I think maybe between 3 and 5.
L - Life is incomplete without: My family. Books. Fall. The Church. Imagination. Laughter. Little kids. Some Learning. ;)
M - Marriage Date: I still wish to this day that Topher and I could've been married in September or October. I love the colors and the weather. But March was definitely a hard enough wait for us, so an extra 6 months wouldn't have worked so good. So March 8th, 2007
N - Number of Siblings: 4: Big Bro, two Big sisters and a little baby sister! But, I also have 4 half siblings. And then I have all my siblings spouses as well as my in-laws. So, all in all I think i have 20 total.
O - Oranges or Apples: Depends on the actual specimen. Some apples are better than oranges. Some oranges are really good and are better than apples. I know, I'm a freak. Probably oranges though, even though they suck to peel. It takes 20 minutes just to get all the gunk off that I don't want to eat!
P - Phobias/Fears: Getting in a car crash. Losing a family member. Losing my baby. Being a bad mommy or wife. I don't like to be home alone at night. I don't like to be alone in the dark. I hate being outdoors at night. Freaky people.
Q - Favorite Quote: I'm not a wise enough person to have a favorite quote. haha.
R - Reason to smile: Thinking of April 1st. :) Family. Babies. Spring. My Wedding. Yummy Mexican food. Fall Leaves. My Neices and Nephews.
S - Season: Hands down it has to be Fall. All the colors and the beautiful weather. I love the Fall very very best.
T- Tag Three: Mommy, Topher, and Emily, in case she feels left out. :)
U - Unknown Fact About Me: I actually have a really big mouth. So most people know everything that there is to know. And if there's something about me that people don't know, it's probably better left that way. :)
V - Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animals: I really wish I could say I was vegetarian. I admire the way people can eat no meat. And it really does seem healthier. But if you put a perfectly medium-rare steak in front of me, I cannot say no, especially if A1 sauce is nearby.
W - Worst Habit: Biting my nails. Talking too much. Being Unmotivated. Not helping people around me, not noticing people's needs. I feel very self-centered sometimes.
X - X-rays or Ultrasounds: X-rays normally mean you hurt something. so I don't like those. Ultrasounds mean there's a baby!! So definitely ultrasounds.
Y - Your Favorite Foods: Mexican Mexican and more Mexican. Real italian pasta from Italy, wow. Chef's salad that Dacia makes cuz it has everything in it! Fruit Pizza, that stuff is amazing, I think I could eat a whole one by myself if I wasn't interrupted. And, Sun-du-boo, which is this amazing spicy korean soup with tofu and egg and baby shrimps. Yum.
Z- Zodiac: Pisces

Topher's ABC's

I decided that Topher doesn't do these ever. So these are all Topher's answers, typed by Buggy as they were said by Topher. My husband is such a nerd. Wow. But so cute too!
A - Attached or Single: Very Attached. To my Buggy.
B - Best Friend: Buggy. Buggy. haha
C - Cake or Pie: Buggy's peach/Raspberry pie.
D - Drink of Choice: hmmm...Lemonade that Buggy makes me. haha. except she doesn't make me lemonade. but if she did, that would be my favorite.
E - Essential Item: Buggy? haha. hmmm Buggy's kisses? um, can you tell i'm obsessed? ok, cell phone so i can talk to buggy and bus pass so i can get home to buggy.
F - Favorite Color: Blue, like Buggy's eyes. hehe
G - Gummi Bears or Worms: Buggy usually gets me gummy bears. But I like sour worms a lot.
H - Hometown: Farmington
I – Indulgence(s): Buggy and fresh lemonade. Flying kites and Video games? Good juice.
J - January or July: January cause Buggy will snuggle me closer when its cold. And snowboarding is good too.
K - Kids: As in yes or no? Um, yes, with Buggy please.
L - Life is incomplete without: My wife. Kites. Books.
M - Marriage Date: Um...what was it again? hehe. just kidding. March 8, 2007.
N - Number of Siblings: I now have 11! 5 younger and 6 older.
O - Oranges or Apples: Oranges. I can peel it in one peel too!
P - Phobias/Fears: I'm kinda scared of heights. Losing my and Buggy's baby. Losing a family member. Failing.
Q - Favorite Quote: "There is something fascinating about science. One gets such wholesale returns of conjecture out of such a trifling investment of fact." -Mark Twain...by the way, he's making fun of Science because Scientists/researchers get teeny little facts and make huge hypotheses about the meaning of life, and its just funny.
R - Reason to smile: Buggy, baby, kites, wind, nature, hiking, camping.
S - Season: Fall.
T- Tag Three: Alysia, our baby, and uh...Joe.
U - Unknown Fact About Me: I acted in a Japanese Theater play...in college, and I was the wife. haha
V - Vegetarian or Oppressor of Animals: haha. I do eat meat. So I guess I'm an opressor.
W - Worst Habit: Picking at hang nails.
X - X-rays or Ultrasounds: X-rays? I've never had a ultrasound. But ultrasounds are cool cause I get to see my baby.
Y - Your Favorite Foods: The food Buggy makes me, or when she's not cooking, I also like Korean food. ex: Bud-e-chi-gae, bim-bim-bop, Sam-gae-tan
Z- Zodiac: I don't know. Pisces? or Aries? February 3rd. :)


This is the first picture I can find of me being pregnant…This was BEFORE I knew I was pregnant…but none the less, I am one week pregnant in this picture!! Crazy huh?!!! Not that that really interests anyone…but I thought it was kinda cool. I almost kinda look like I know I’m pregnant and I’m scared out of my mind, and like I know I’m dumb…my face seems to say “yup, I’m a re re”. Haha.
I thought I would mention in here something I found in my journal the other day. I was reading back before Topher and I were married, the date on the entry was January 30, 2007, a month and a half before topher and I were going to be married…Now, I don’t even REMEMBER writing this, or even the actual experience, but in my journal I wrote, and I QUOTE:

“I think I’m going to have a baby next year. Around April/May 2008. I prayed today and that was the impression that I got”

That’s all I wrote!! Isn’t that crazy?!! That settles it. I really am suppsed to have this baby. And for some reason, I’m really supposed to have it in April!!
I was thinking on Sunday, that writing in a journal is so so important. And I always feel a sense of accomplishment after I write in mine. I hadn’t written in my journal since January, so this last Sunday I wrote 8 ½ pages!!! Then I realized, that these blogs are kind of like journal entries…so I think I might try to print them out and put them into a journal. I think you guys should all do it too!! Cuz your kids will all want to see these when they’re old enough to remember it. I can see emily’s future daughter in laws loving to read about their husbands being dirty in the mud and painting the exercise bike, and I know Anya’s future hubby would love the entries about his Princess wife. Just a thought, but ya know, sometimes I can’t help but think em’. 


Alien Swimmer baby!

This is zeburr updating da andersen blog for dems.

Here is da ultrasizound for der baby yo....

Ok,thank you Joe. I realize it's been forever since I posted a blog...i'm sorry. I'm working on getting one of those card readers, but I don't want to spend a lot of money. So if you see an inexpensive one somewhere, let me know. That will definitely make my blog postings more frequent.
So, yes, this is my little baby. Joe is a re re however and posted the picture upside down. The circle that seems to have black holes in it, at the bottom of the picture..is actually the baby's head, and you can see it's eyes, and actually in close up, you can see its mouth and nose too. Its pretty cool. The baby is supposedly doing really well, growing perfectly and really healthy. I had actually gone in for just a routine four week check-up, and the Doctor was trying to use the doppler to find the heartbeat. Five minutes into it a heartbeat could not be found, and to ease my panic, my Doctor got the ultrasound machine and found the baby right away. Turns out that the placenta was in front of the baby, and that's what was blocking the heartbeat from being heard. So, I got an extra ultrasound! October will be my fourth month of pregnancy. I'm really excited cuz this is the month when the baby starts being able to hear things. Mostly just my heartbeat and tummy rumblings, but by the end of the month he'll be able to hear Topher talk too. I'm pretty excited.
I still don't really look pregnant, so that's why I haven't posted any pictures of my belly. I just look fat, not pregnant. :)
Anywho, I hope all is well with everyone. I hope no one is sick, cuz my husband sure is. I don't know who he got it from, maybe Dacia, I dunno. He has a high fever, cold, head ache, and he can barely move without looking like he's on the brink of tears. And here I am, stuck at work because Venice has to take her dumb kids to dentist appointments. If HER family was sick, I WOULD BE AT WORK COVERING FOR HER, but no, when my husband is sick...the dentist is more important. Can you tell I'm slightly frustrated???? Cuz i am.
Anywho. Hope all is well with everyone.
Luv Bugs


I Spoke Too Soon...

So, yesterday was one of my better days, until about 1:00 in the afternoon where I began to throw up EVERY 10 MINUTES non stop.
I had to start taking my antibiotics for my lovely bladder infection yesterday, and it turns out they cause nausea, vomiting and drowsiness. I had to leave work around 3 and could barely even make it to Jen's house without throwing up. It was horrible. I don't think I've had that horrible of a day my whole pregnancy. :(
As of right now, I refuse to ever get pregnant again, EVER!!


A Few of My Favorite Things...

1.) Taco Salads...minus the taco, minus the meat....hehe
Those have been some of the cravings lately...lettuce and rice and tomatoes and olives and salsa and sourcream...mmmmm yummy

2.) Mr. Clean Magic Erasers. Those are so cool!!! No, not to eat, but to clean with!! I actually was having fun cleaning because of how well they work. Marker, gone, crayon, gone, black scuffs ALL OVER THE WALLS, gone. Those things really are magic. So so cool.

3.) Sleeping in until 8:30, and not being expected at work until 10. So so wonderful.

4.) Great Harvest's cinnamon raisin bread, fresh from the oven, soft and hot and oozing with Apricot jam. Yummy yummy yummy.

5.) And to top it all off, a deliciously scrumptious fresh peach raspberry & sorbet smoothie from Jamba Juice. Definitely must be tried by everyone. :)

All in all, in case you can't tell, I am having quite the wonderful day today.
Although, yesterday wasn't bad either. I only had to work half a day, and then I went to Alan and Jen's, they made me lunch, and then I took a nap on their couch, and when I woke up, my husband was there! :) Then we went and cleaned Emi's yucky rental house, and made it beautiful again, and we went to bed way too late...but still, a pretty good day.
Yesterday's good day, and today's good day, puts me on a roll. :)


Dacia's "Tag 11"

1. One of my biggest regrets in life:
High School. High School. High School.
Need I say more.

2. Stupidest thing I ever did:
Date that stupid boy named Jay Karl Webb. I don't know WHAT i was thinking!!!!

3. Funniest thing I ever did:
I do many stupid and funny things. But probably the one that sticks out most in my mind is mine and Dacia's sour cream fight. haha. thinking about that night always makes me laugh. we were eating tacos and ended up chasing each other around the house throwing sour cream at each other! hehehe

4. Favorite joke:
may not be a super funny joke...but its the best I got...and it makes me laugh.

What did the Fish say when it ran into the wall?


What did the wall say when the Fish ran into it?

Dumb Bass!!

5. One favorite odd thing to do:
Strangely enough, I agree with Dacia and Emily, it is so much fun to bite Topher!! hehe. they're of course loving nibbles. but still, very fun indeed.

6. Could spend hours doing this:
sleeping. shopping. watching gilmore girls. eating ice cream. snuggling with my husband.

7. Dream Job:
One where I could rotate doing different jobs depending on what I was in the mood for every day. :) I could be a teacher on monday, a chef on tuesday, a cosmetologist on wednesday, a travel agent on friday, and a swim teacher on saturday mornings....then be a mommy and a wife on saturday and sunday. hehe. i think that would be the best job EVER. too bad it doesn't exist.

8.Favorite room in the house to clean:
why should I clean when I have a Topher?! hehe...none of the above. i hate to clean. if i have to clean, then the living room. cuz it always looks so darn pretty when its clean.

9. A future goal:
Along with Dacia...I hope to travel the world with my spousey. He has seen a good portion of Asia, and so he could be my tour guide through that continent, and I could be his tour guide through Europe. And then we could explore all the other places neither of us has ever been to. :)

10. My perfect day consists of:
Being able to sleep in until at least 7:30...Waking up with energy, and for once in the past 7 weeks, NOT being exhausted, therefore, being able to shower and dress myself, and to have the energy to actually DO my hair and make up half decently. My day would then consist of not having to go to work AT ALL, and Topher not having to go to school. Topher and I would stay home and have a yummy breakfast together. Then we would meet up with my family somewhere, a park or something fun, and we would spend the afternoon eating, laughing, playing games and just being together as friends and family. Then Topher and I would got out for dinner. Have fun just being together. And then we would go home, snuggle up in our bed, watch a movie together on our Projector screen, and fall asleep by 10. It doesn't get much better than that...well, I guess If I randomly won 1,000 dollars for no reason that would make it a pretty good day too.

11. Something that needs to be invented:
Well, Topher thinks that all the wind that rushes past your car should be converted into a system that helps your car be more efficient. he thinks that cars should have turbines that convert the wind into electricity...he's a weirdo though...
I think they should invent robots that do your homework for you, and go to class for you, and go to work for you, and entertain your husband while you sleep. ;) hehehe

Sara's Blog Tag :)

Blogger Tag
4 jobs I have had
1. Love Sac baby!
2. Lifeguard/Swim Teacher
3. Sales Rep/Pretty much Tele-Marketer for Pure Credit Unlimited...yeah...ditched that job without giving 2 weeks notice. oops.
4. Receptionist at Columbus Travel and Sweets Candy as well as Tour Guide

4 movies I can watch over & over
1. The Notebook
2. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (new version)
3. Sweet Home Alabama
4. Meet the Robinsons

4 places I have lived
1. Farmington, Ut
2. Blue Springs, Missourri
3. Irvine, CA
4. Germany

4 favorite TV shows
1. Well, I don't have T.V. but if I did...Discovery Channel
2. Gilmore Girls
3. History Channel
4. Next Top Model

4 of my favorite places I've been
1. Italy
2. Disney World/Sea World
3. Oregon Coast
4. Mexico on my Honeymoon

4 favorite foods
1. Mom's Lasagna mmmmm
2. Fruit Pizza
3. Ice Cream
4. Pretty much anything from Taco Bell

4 favorite websites I check daily
1. Blogs
2. e-mail
3. Google
4. Msn.com

4 favorite hobbies
1. Sleeping
2. Shopping!
3. Scrapbooking
4. Snuggling my Hubby

4 places I'd rather be
1. With my Mom in Idaho
2. Anywhere with my family
3. On vacation - preferrably Disney Land or Sea World or Europe
4. Curled up at home in bed with some comfort food and watching Gilmore Girls on the Projector screen

4 friends I would like to tag...

anybody please!


Amazing Family Ties...

So, this post is sort of random..but after sitting here and thinking for what was probably way too long for me to be thinking, (i could've hurt myself) I have come to the realization that I have an AMAZING family.
I have always been ready to admit that I have a wonderful family and that each member of my family is my best friend is some respect. But I think I have taken advantage, or just overlooked, how amazingly talented each and every one of them are.
I was just glancing over Alan's website, AlanJPhoto, and realized how amazingly talented he is at photography. Maybe he has always been really talented at this, but it seems like it has just recently started to take flight into an amazing ability...And THIS realization, is what brings me to my blog.
My amazing family, and all of their abilities that leave me in awe.

I guess I'll begin with Alan, since he's the Oldest and the freshest on my mind.
When most people meet Alan, they think he is an amazing outdoors man. Awesome at biking, hiking, repelling, mountain climbing, the works...whatever it is outdoors, he's mastered it. And this is of course true, he IS amazing at all those things. In fact, when I describe my brother to people, I am normally ALWAYS bragging about his amazing repelling/mountain climbing and mountain biking skills.
But on top of those things, he is an outstanding photographer. Talk about talented. He just seems to get better and better and better with every single photo shoot!! He always finds these unique angles, and has the right setting and mood and lighting. And he has so many cool ways of editing the pictures to enhance features, and highlight aspects of the photo. He is just amazingly talented. Wow. Props to the big Brother. :)

So, next in line would be Emily. Emily is,... well, Emily. Thinking about her always leaves me at a loss of words. Emily is always dedicated, and focused and always seems to know exactly what she wants and needs and what needs to be done to get it. Her determination is something that I envy. Not only did she graduate High School with High Honors, while being in Limited Edition, Advanced Theater and numerous A.P. classes, (something I WISH i could've achieved) she also got her bachelors, AND a law degree. AND she got her law degree while she was taking care of a little baby. She is SO SO amazingly smart. I can only wish that somewhere deep inside me is a little bit of the motivation and ability that drove her to go through such intense schooling and to finish on top. I can barely even manage three easy general ed classes, and I have no excuses not to finish them or suceed in them. Emily is simply amazingly smart. But, like Alan, being smart is not her only ability that amazes me. She also, is an AMAZING gourmet chef. She may tell people its just a hobby, but she comes up with some of the yummiest and most BEAUTIFUL concoctions in the whole world. I envy her ability to make a trifle that looks flawless, when there's me, who if I EVER try to make a pretty dessert, I have to tell people "Who cares what it looks like! It tastes good, I swear!! It all goes to the same place anyway..."
And, I won't stop there, Emily is also an amazing piano player. Never once did she give up on piano. She was always practicing and doing all her assignments in piano lessons. She wasn't a slacker like me, she actually devoted time and effort to it. She is AMAZING. And to top it all off, she is a wonderful mother.

Next is Dacia.
Not only does she have the ability to make anyone smile and laugh, but she is also very very gifted in graphic design. She can make ANYTHING, from a scrapbook page, to a home made card, to an entire magazine look above and beyond professional. She has the ability to make everything flow, and no matter what the design or object of her task, she always seems to get the desired effect. Her magazines are spectacular, they look flawless. Her designs and color schemes are always unique and beautiful. Her scrapbook pages are the object of probably every girl's envy. She's just got an eye for good art.
On top of her talent with a Mac and being able to lay out any design she desires...she is super talented at drawing and art. I remember looking at her artwork ever since I was in Elementary School and wishing I could draw like her. She always made everything look so real. Everything she drew ended up being perfect, and she could draw it in HALF the time it took me to conjure up something half as impressive. She seems to think that because she has an artist for a husband that he overshadows her, but I would SERIOUSLY contest that. I have always thought, and still think, that she is an amazing artist.
Aside from her artistic abilities she is an amazing best friend.

So...those are the siblings. Pretty amazing.
But, I would never dream of leaving out their spouses!!

First off Jen, cuz I know her better than Jared and Joe, and therefore have much more to say about her. :)She is one of the most caring people I've ever met. She is always interested in everyone's feelings and hopes and dreams. Within an hour of meeting her, she has undoubtedly caused you to have diarrea of the mouth and you're telling her all your hopes, dreams and dark secrets!!
Jen is also amazing with kids. I don't think i've ever seen a little kid not fall in love with Jen.
jen is also super impressive when it comes to the outdoors. While most of the family would be whining and complaining about a hike, she actually enjoys and kicks butt when it comes to hiking and backpacking. Something that part of me envies, and part of me is just in awe that anyone would enjoy such an activity. ;)
Jen is also someone who doesn't seem to ever give up. She'll try over and over again at anything. I mean, look at the family she married into! and She still hasn't divorced Alan!! haha. jk.
She seems to have done everything and been everywhere and experienced everything, and that makes her very wise in my eyes. :)

Jared. Jared seems very wise, but also like a little boy sometimes. Just over the past year, I feel like I've noticed a lot more how much he is in love with Emily, and that right there is a talent in and of itself! hehe. jk emi. Jared really does seem to be an amazing spouse though. He seems to take such good care of his wife and children, and it seems as though his family all love and respect him very very much. He also, from what I can tell, seems to be really super smart. Getting a degree in criminal law, going to the Police Academy, being in the military, these are all feats that seem unbelievable and unascertainable to me. He is very versatile and talented in everything he does. Also, something that completely amazes me, is his ability to walk into a house, a house of any means or situation, and turn it into something beautiful. His ability to alter a house's appearance by means of flooring, cabinets, carpeting, ANYTHING that needs to be done, is just amazing.

Next, would be Zeburr. Along with Daysh, he maintains the ability to make anyone laugh. But, aside from that, he is an entertainer, an acrobat, an artist, a skater punk, and a dirt bike junkie. Talk about multi-talented. Anything that boy puts his mind to, it can be done, and not only can it be done, but he can probably MASTER it. Water sports, yard sports, biking, you name it, he can probably do it, and if he can't, give him an hour and he'll have it down pat. :)
Plus, he writes hysterically funny church talks and treats my sister really well. :)

And of course I haven't forgotten the best of all, and that would by MY spousey. He is AMAZING!!!!!! You may all think he is a push over because he spoils me more than Veruca Salt, but I say that he is wonderful. He is so smart and self sacrificing and just down right amazing. He is always good at whatever he attempts and amazing at anything he really puts his mind to. He is kind and loving and DOWN RIGHT AMAZING with kids. Talk about being a #1 future daddy. He also is an amazing Korean chef, and linguist. He is so much fun to watch fly kites. I think I could watch him all day because of the smile on his face while he's doing it. He is amazing and capable of so many wonderful things. I'm SO excited I get to watch him accomplish them all throughout the rest of our lives together. :)

Now, I realize that this has been an AMAZINGLY long post, and for this I apologize. But my work here is not done yet. I still need to post about my amazing parents...but...i'm sleepy...and need to go throw up some more...so...adieu for tonight...

I love my family so so much!! Thank you all for being the best friends a sister could EVER ask for!


I Want My Mommy!!!

I'm anywhere between 3 and 5 weeks pregnant, and I'm already wanting my Mommy!
I feel so sick, exhausted, and over emotional its crazy. I cried all morning because I didn't was having such a hard time waking up. I then showered with the lights off, fell asleep in the shower, fell asleep again after showering, and then cried some more I was so tired.
I'm now at work, feeling sick, crying and feeling like nothing would feel better than throwing up. But, of course, I can't throw up, because that would be too easy. So I'm sitting here, nauseous and light headed, wanting to go home.
Luckily, Venice is at work with me too and she requested I sit at the desk, relax and not do anything.
I hope this pregnancy thing gets better soon, because right now, I'm about to resent this baby!
Honestly, that's probably not true...I'm so so excited to be pregnant. I've probably been thinking about this baby that's growing inside of me 23 out of the 24 hours in the day. I think its amazing, and I feel so lucky and blessed that Heavenly Father somehow has enough faith in me to entrust me with this little being.
And I guess that if Heavenly Father trusts me to HAVE a baby, then that means I'm strong enough to deal with a little bit of morning sickness in the beginning.
Anywhooo...to all of you that are familiar with pregnancy symptoms...PLEASE let me know when I can expect to be feeling better!


Family Reunion

So, this last week Topher and I went to the Johnson family reunion. It was definitely a very LONG vacation, (9 days) but we spaced it out between a lot of different places and people, so we didn't ever get burned out. :)

We started our vacation by goin to Mum and Sam's, (always a very relaxing choice) and we spent a couple days there with them chatting, shopping, watching movies, getting massages, and going to their spa.

Then on Saturday night we went into Jackson and the Tetons. We met up with Dad, Emily and Alan, had some wonderful dutch oven dinners, did some pretty hikes and some kyaking on Lewis Lake. Who ever said a one person kyak is for one person, is wrong, because Topher and I fit just fine in it together. It was very cozy...and quite convenient because I didn't have to paddle at all. :)

We slept in Dad and Karen's trailer and every morning when Rachel woke up, we'd take her out of the pac'n play and she'd snuggle with us and tell us all the bug names on my pillowcase,(So so sweet!!!).

The Tetons were beautiful and Topher and I managed to live up to our life motto of "Been there Kissed there"...

It was so much fun to have a couple days with my siblings and parents and to just get to relax and spend time catching up with mom, dad, emily and alan...(it would have been fun to catch up with Dacia, but she didn't feel the need to show up at Flagg Ranch with the rest of us...;))
After the weekend with the family, we went a little further into Yellowstone and then went to Harriman State Park for the actual reunion. Although the 'living space' was anything but spacious, or comfortable or cozy, it was fun and we managed to enjoy ourselves with a couple different activities. The family olympics were a lot of fun, (Topher almost won the Hula Hoop contest AND the pie eating contest!!)

Topher managed to go kyaking down the river with Joe (one of his highlights of the trip), we went to Firehole in Yellowstone, Topher got to fly his kite in Yellowstone, we played card games every night, and I had a lot of fun doing the dessert bar for the whole family. All in all, a sucessful trip for Topher to meet and mingle with the Johnson family, and a fun opportunity for us to spend time with my siblings and parents.


Three Little Bugs...?


I'm It! I'm It!!

I thought this would be really fun...but now that I'm actually trying to think of things to say I realize its going to be WAY too easy for people to figure out which one the lie is...my life seems way to open. :( Probably cuz I have such a big mouth. :)

1. I was in homeschool for a year for kissing a boy
2. I was rejected from BYU-Idaho the first time I applied
3. I almost didn't graduate High School
4. Dacia and I received our real "first kiss" moments in the same week as each other
5. I have won or placed in Scholarship Pageants 3 times
6. I take a pregnancy test every week
7. Topher made the first move in our relationship
8. I don't think I will ever finish school
9. My secret wish is to be a Marine Biologist

Ok...well, I think that's it!
Have fun!


VERY random thoughts of the day...

Mind you, these thoughts are in NO way organized. I just feel like talking, and figured this was a good outlet for that. These thoughts are also not WELL THOUGHT OUT. therefore, after typing half of them, i'll probably change my mind on my opinions of them. :)
With that in mind, if you are still willing, you may proceed. :)

Thought #1: harry Potter
why did I never read Harry Potter? I love to read! Why did I never read these books that are supposedly so amazing and monumental. I have NO idea. But, Topher and I got invited by his family to go to the midnight showing of the movie that's coming out, so Topher and I have begun to read the book before the one coming out, and also the book that IS coming out. So, we've been listening to it on tape, and I actually like it a lot. Did you know, the guy who does the voices on the books on tape, won a GRAMMY for his amazing voices, and also went in the GUINESS BOOK OF WORLD RECORDS for "most voices in one recording", or something like that. he's amazing.

(I told you this post would be boring, so its your own fault if your rolling your eyes, wondering "WHY THE HECK AM I READING THIS?!")

Thought #2: Pregnant
I want to be pregnant so bad!! Its ridiculous!! EVERYONE AND THEIR DOG seems to be telling me how dumb it is to want to be pregnant, and how I need to wait, and how I shouldn't rush, and I need to finish school, and I'm so young, and a dozen other reasons to wait!! I would be willing to say that two thirds of all those reasons are valid. ANd yet, I STILL want to be pregnant. I want so badly to have a little baby in my tummy and to have food cravings and to gain weight like crazy in my tummy and to have a big balloon belly that I KNOW topher will rub everytime he sees it! I even don't mind the idea of being sick. This is mainly because for the past two weeks I have already had OVER HALF the syptoms of being pregnant, and I'M NOT PREGNANT!! What's the point of being sick if it's for NO GOOD REASON!!? I feel nauseaus, I have cramps, I'm always hungry, I CONSTANTLY have to go to the bathroom, I'm grumpy, I'm exhausted...all of those are pregnancy symptoms, but i'm NOT pregnant! I find that so unfair that I'm sick, and its for no good reason.

Thought #3: Money
I hate money. I only work because we need the money, and yet I hate to work. Why can't I ever find a job that I actually love to go to everyday, and that pays well?! I think that I'm just not a working person. I'm not meant to work. I think I am meant to be home everyday, clean house, cook for my husband and make lots of babies. Money and I just don't go well together. I always spend it, and then I get in trouble. And i hate making it. :(

Thought #4: School
I hate school. I don't want to finish because I feel like its going to take me an eternity. And I'm doing horrible in it anyways. I always thought maybe I was smart, deep down, and that I just wasn't motivated...but no, I think I really am just dumb. Besides, what good is school, when I'm not going to work anyways? I'll never get to have a career of my own, because I want kids...so what's the point of wasting money that my Mom and Dad worked hard to earn, on an education that will never be of any use to me? Now, I know that Pres. Hinckley wants us to get an education, and to be completely honest, I love to learn. I just feel so defeated in the area of school. Like I've hit rock bottom and will never be able to do well in school again. I feel like I'll never be able to just start over. The grades I got are official and on a transcript and that just sucks. I just feel like giving up, which I know is pathetic and wimpy. But its how I feel.

Thought #5: I'm pathetic.
I'm realizing that all my 'thoughts' have in some way been complaining. I should be so grateful for everything I have, and I should have faith that everything will work itself out. But for some reason, I just feel empty, and lost, and like things aren't going the way I want them too. I know I should be positive, and energetic. I know I need to be grateful for everything I have and stop whining and complaining. But its so hard because I feel like I have no motivation. I wish I could be one of those people that says, "This is what I want to do, so I'm gonna do it!", and that I could then actually DO IT. But I've never been able to be like that. I always say, "this is what I want", but then I never have the discipline to follow through. :(

big sigh...

i love my family. I love my husband. I love my apartment. My job is a good job that pays well and that fits my needs. I love to watch my husband fly kites. I don't need a baby RIGHT now. I can wait. I love my sisters. I love my MOm. I love my DAd. I love jaxon and gavin. I love babies. I love to snuggle baby Caden. I love baby Aaron's smile and giggle. I love my big brother! I loved how Anya was such an adorable tough goalie over the weekend. I love cooking. I love a clean house. I love to be outside. I love to learn. I love to read. I love Monster Milky candies.

I just need to remember these things that are important to me, because these are the things that really matter, (except the monster milkies...not so important) And I need to have faith that Heavenly Father loves me. ANd that he's not going to abandon me. If I feel empty its my own fault. And I need to remember to be strong. And to not give up.

Anyways...this was more like journal entry wasn't it?
If anyone actually read this whole thing...wow....i'm impressed with you. Thanks for reading.

Love you all!


My Daddy!

So...since i'm the most horrible daughter in the WHOLE WORLD....I wanted to do this to make sure my Dad knew that I really do love him so so much. And just because I'm a forgetful, bad, horrible daughter doesn't change the fact that he's a wonderful Dad.
I'm so sorry DAddy!!! Will you PLEASE forgive me?!!!

Anyway...I thought this might be fun to do the same questions as Dacia did on her blog...

Question #1: What is a favorite dish your Dad makes (or what has he ever cooked)?

Well...My Dad wasn't really one for cooking. Especially since my mom is such a darn good cook...But, like Dacia, I too remember his Spanish rice...that was the famous Daddy meal, and it was good...But along with that, was his specialty macaroni and and cheese. He'd put in ham chunks, cream of mushroom soup and stewed tomatoes. That was pretty yummy. And then there's always his grilling. I love when my Daddy grills stuff!! He grills some of the best steak and chicken I've ever had!! I remember numerous times back in Farmington when he would grill and there would never be enough meat because EVERYONE wanted seconds.

Question #2: If you could describe your dad in one word, what would it be?

I really don't know. There's a lot of words that would describe him. He has so many different qualities, some of them complete opposites from one another. He can be so wonderful and sweet, and other times he can be hard and mean. ;) Probably a lame word, but, I think that my dad is dedicated. Whether it's dedicated to being a good dad, to fixing a mistake, to doing his job perfectly, to being the straight A student, or to winning at a game of "oh Heck" he's dedicated.

Question #3: What is a time where you remember laughing with your dad?

I can't exactly remember a specific time laughing with him. You don't get a real laugh out of him very often though. He'll smile and kinda chuckle, but the real laughs are hard to come by. Like Dacia said though, they're really fun to hear. He's got a fun laugh. He laughs a lot with Rachel, when she does funny things and such.

Question #4: Share an experience where your dad made your life better.

There are so many! He pays for my schooling, he paid for my wedding, he always took the family to explore the world! It was so much fun to travel with the family, and I know I'd never have gotten to do all that traveling if it wasn't for my DAd. He also instilled a love of music into me. I never wouldv'e played piano as much as I did, or at all, if it wasn't for my DAd. I know I never would've wanted to compete in a Scholarship pageant without that talent either. I also love to sing, and although that's something given to me by both my mom and dad, I always loved to listen to my DAd sing.

Question #5: Share an experience where your DAd got really mad at you.

Yeah, kinda the same as Dac...there are a lot. But that's mostly cuz i was stupid and a difficult child. I would've gotten mad at me too. Probably one of the worst, that I remember, was when I failed a class in Junior high, and got a couple D's and C's on my report card. He was pretty mad at me. And rightly so.

Question #6: Share an experience where you gained a deeper love and appreciation for your dad.

One that immediately comes to mind is one Christmas, when he wrote me a poem, it was about being a bug. It was so sweet, and it reminded me how much my Dad really loves me. Sometimes I read it and feel like I really am "Daddy's little girl". Another experience that was really special, I remember on Rachel's baby blessing, my DAd got up and bore his testimony. That meant more to me than anything he's ever done. It was so special to me, and I loved him more than I ever had before. Hearing him say how much he loved his kids and how much they meant to him, that was definitely very important for me.

Question #7: What is one of your favorite things to do with your dad?

I like to play games with him. I love to go hiking or camping or kayaking with him. I also remember when he used to have work things at our house, and he would always make me play piano for his friends/co-workers. It was like he was showing me off. That was pretty cool. :)
I just like when he spends quality time with me. Which is a lot more now that it ever has been. So spending time with him at his house with him and his little family is a lot of fun for me.

I love my Dad so much. He really is so special to me. In the past couple years, as hard as they have been, he has changed so so much. He was never ever a bad dad, ever...but, he's definitely a better Dad now that he ever has been. I look up to him in a lot of ways. I admire his courage, and determination. I also think he is one of the smartest people I know. I love him so much and I'm so sorry I forgot to call and say Happy Father's Day.
So happy belated Father's Day Daddy!!
I love you!!

Love buggy


Tag Game...I hate/heart

So...I decided that Emily's game sounded kinda fun and that I wanted to play along...so...I believe it's 5 things I love and 5 things I hate... right?
Well...that's what I'll do.

I heart...

1. I love my husband. He is wonderful. He treats me like a princess. He cleans the house for me, empties the garbage, gives me back rubs, plays with my hair, loves and cuddles me and is simply the most wonderful husband in the whole world.

2. Kittens, puppies....pretty much anything that I can hold in my arms. I love kittens and puppies because of how soft and cuddly they are, and how they fit in my hands and lick my fingers. I always loved when my cat fell asleep right next to my head at night and I woke up with him on my head. It was so fun and I always felt like there was a little person with me.

3. Babies. I probably love these right now, because I don't/can't have one. I'm sure that once I have one...this opinion will change. But for now, I love babies. I think about babies and relate every object to how it would accomodate a baby. I love how cute they are when they giggle and yawn and hiccup. I love babies!

4. Water. This includes, but is not limited to, pools, lakes, showers, and especially rain and waterfalls. I love rainstorms and when the rain is pouring down but it's still warm outside. I love to swim and the smell of chlorine. I love to sit and look at a beautiful waterfall and listen to the water hit the rocks below.

5. My Family. I absolutely love my family. I love my sisters, (this includes you Jen). They are my best friends. I love to shop with them, talk with them and mostly just be with them. I love my big brother, he always makes me laugh and is so oblivious to any drama or fights that are happening. He'll always tease me no matter whose mad at me. I love my mom. She is always there for me and such an amazing best friend. I love my dad. He is so smart and I look up to him in so many ways. I love my neice and nephews, they are such fun little kids and they're always smiling. I love Sam and Karen because they are different from my familiy. So when I get sick of my family, they're a nice break. ;) I also love them because of how happy they make Mum and Dad. And I of course love my brother in-laws too. They are funny. But I like them less than everyone else cuz they stole my sisters from me.
My family is so important to me and I could never be happy without them.

I hate...

1. This one is a tie between traffic jams and grumpy old people. Traffic sucks. I get grumpy, and hot because my car has no a/c and I always get road rage and end up yelling. Old people are just deceiving. I always think that old people are supposed to be jolly. But then, out of NO WHERE, they snap at you or cuss at you. And then you have a horrible day.

2. Cops. Most of them, maybe not all of them, but MOST of them, are cocky and rude. They think that they have authority to do anything and everything, and if that includes talking down to you, yelling and you and in some cases beating you, then so be it!! Well I say that they stink. And they eat too many donuts.

3. House work. I hate how I clean and clean and clean and do laundry, and more laundry, do dishes, and more dishes...and yet the pile is never gone. There is always more laundry, more cleaning and more dishes to do...it is never-ending and I HATE it.

4. Fighting. I hate to fight. I hate fighting with my sisters, with my mom, with my husband, with people at work. I just hate to think someone I care about is upset with me. ...fighting with people that are stupid on the other hand...like people at STC...that on the other hand is just fun.

5. Hunting. I HATE people who kill things for FUN. I think it is cruel and heartless. They shoot animals that are beautiful and peaceful, and most of all NOT HURTING THEM AND SMALLER THAN THEM, AND... they do it just to have a set of antlers on their wall! GRRRRRRR!!!!!!

The Bestest Friend a Girl Could Ask For...

I was told...a little late I may add...that we were all doing a tribute to mummy. Well...for me, that is really difficult because there are hundreds of things I could say about Mom and why I love her so much, and hundreds more memories I could name that were my favorite with her.

So...since I won't be able to write every memory and every thought I have about my Mother, I will just write down my thoughts...all though they may be random, its how I feel when I think about my Mom.

Mom has been my best friend.

Mom has never given up on me.

Mom has been mean to me, cuz whose mom hasn't, but always made it up to me...and normally been justified in being mean in the first place.

Mom has loved me even through the times I didn't deserve to be loved.
Mom has always been silly with me, and serious with me.

If I ever wanted to be ridiculous, she would jump in with me.

If I ever wanted to sit and not say anything, she would sit right by me and just hug me.

If I ever wanted to talk, she would sit up til mid morning until I was finished.

Mom has never not had time for me.

Mom has never not had advice for me.

Mom has never not had a big hug and kiss for me.
Mom has always, for as long as I can remember, squeezed my hand three times to say "I love you".

Now...I always squeeze my husband's hand to say the same thing. And I can't wait til I have kids of my own whose hands I can squeeze in just the same way.

Mom is the most amazing mother I have ever heard of or met. And the most amazing mother Heavenly Father EVER could've blessed me with. She needed to be MY mommy. I wouldn't have made it to where I am now with anyone else...it had to be HER.

She is wonderful, funny, silly, SMART, BEAUTIFUL, creative, talented, emphathetic, sweet, understanding, patient, loving, sweet, gentle, GERMAN, comforting, accepting, and she's one of the easiest people for me to be around.

I could never get sick of her, I just miss her all the time.

She is perfect in every way, except for the fact that she lives 3 hours away. If she was a little bit closer, THEN she'd be perfect.

She is the best mother ever, and I'm so glad she's mine. I'm so glad that I didn't just get a mother, but that I also got a best friend. Some of the best memories I have are with her, and with Dacia, the three of us living together.
But also the ones where it was just the two of us. I could never go with anyone else to an "Aura Reading" and then talk for hours about what our aura color tells us about our personalities. I could never talk to anyone about as many of my failings
and sucesses as I do to her. And no one knows me
better or understands me more than she does.
She is wonderful, beautiful, youthful, SKINNY, and my best friend in every way.

Happy Birthday Mommy.


Girls Night with Dac=Sweaty yardwork=Fun Rewards

So...my husband decided he wanted to have a guys night this weekend...he went camping with his dad and brother on Friday night, and then tonight his little brother is sleeping at our apartment. So...i figured that a boys for him meant I deserved a girls night with Dacia!

I had images of shopping, scrapbooking, eating, and playing games running through my mind....and I was just ecstatic for my girls weekend. But alas...there is always someone out to get me and ruin my fantasy...this time, it was Dacia. Dacia with gardening tools and plants and a big smile saying "I'm gardening today! You get to help!"
Although I was anything but excited to begin with, it ended up being really fun to spend time with Dac and to reminisce about old, yucky gardening times with mom back in the old house. We both realized that although we had always complained about gardening and vowed to never have our own gardens, we were both very interested in having our own gardens now. We are so much more like mom in the gardening aspect than we ever thought we would be! Its kinda fun! After 7 hours of sweating, weeding, raking, tilling, planting and watering, the garden actually looked really good! I never thought it would take 7 hours to do 3 areas in a yard, but it did...oh well.
My favorite things about the day were talking with dac, the pretty front yard once we were done, being treated to Bajio, AND...best of all...Joe taught me how to ride!!! Finally!! I graduated from the mini 50 and learned how to ride a TTR 125!! yay for me!! and Joe even said I caught on fast...of course that was followed by Dacia saying that he says that to everyone...but I think I did really well. It was a lot of fun...and now all I have to do is teach my husband, get him hooked, and then WE can buy one! :)This was the first weekend I spent away from my husband and it was definitely very lonesome. I have definitely become a very needy wife...I hate to sleep without him. Its lonely :(
Anyway...things are going pretty well with Topher and I. He seems to really like his job at the Cancer institute and is learning a lot. He also hasn't tried to change his major or anything, so obviously, it's still good for him!
I'm still working at Sweet's...I like it all right, the management is pretty cool (doesn't hurt that management is my mother-in-law) and the other day I persuaded Mum and Sam to come in for a tour!! I got mom to wear a hair net, and even though Sam was always asking questions and rarely paying attention to the rules (staying inside the lines!!!), we had a lot of fun and I got them to leave with a big stack of candy in the end! I miss everyone a lot and am really excited to have dinner with the fam tomorrow! I'm also way excited for the days to come...I just feel energized and ready to work. Ready to clean my house, and finish my online class, and spend time with my family...I'm especially excited for whem Emily comes this summer, and also for the reunion!
I hope all is well with everyone, that Emily is feeling better (You scared me Emi-lou...you're not allowed to go to the hospital unless its to have a baby!), that Jen had fun in Vegas, and that everyone else is doing well also. Love you all!


The Big Test

So, the big test is, can Topher and I survive, on just my salary, and mine alone?
The answer is...probably not. So, lucky for us, Topher got the funding from the University for his lab internship!
It only pays up to 1500 hours for the whole summer...which yeah...its not much, but its better than nothing. So, total, it'll be that for 15 hours every week, he'll be getting paid. Not so good if he works 40 hour weeks, but ok if he works 20 hour weeks. :) We'll see how it all turns out.
Either way, we are so so excited that he got the funding. He was supposed to find out if he qualified for funding last Thursday, but they emailed and said that there were so many applicants it was going to take until Tuesday...This made Topher very discouraged, because it lessened his chances of qualifying and lowered the pay if he did qualify.
However...turns out it didn't lower the pay at all. So, although 8/hr isn't much, its pretty darn good for an internship that is supposed to originally be unpaid.
We're happy!
I have been coming down with a nasty sore throat, courtesy of my husband and I now have a pharmacy at my work desk. I have vitamin C, garlic, sore throat spray, cough drops and a big bottle of water. :) Its not fun, but hopefully it won't last long since Topher's was gone in about 2 days.
Also, I chopped my hair. I cut off about 4 inches...and I really like it. Topher doesn't seem to mind either. He informed me that its actually quite sexy, even though there's not much left for him to play with.
Other than those couple things, not much else is new around here. Mum and Sam are coming up this weekend and staying with us for a night or two, we're pretty excited. We're going to do dinner with them and topher's parents and Mum and Sam might even try to take a tour of the Factory with me.
I hope all is well with everyone! We love you lots!

I found this picture on my phone and just thought that it was really cute.
this was when Topher and I were in Colorado, him and Caden took a nap together and it was really really cute!

P.s. sorry the pictures kinda stink...they're off my cell phone...so the quality ain't so hot...I know
oh, and also...em...I have a bunch of pictures of Gavin on my cell phone...you had mentioned you wanted/needed some...and i have quite a few....i can send them to you and you should be able to put them on a disc i believe...but i could be wrong. :)


The much needed update...

Yes...Its true...we have not posted in a long time.
That's cuz Topher distracts me too much. If I'm not at work...I'm being cuddled...or kissed...or groped or something else inappropriate...and sometimes cooking food, or doing laundry, therefore making it nigh impossible for me to update this here blog.
So...A couple weekends ago we went to Mum and Sam's with Dac, Joe, Alan & Jen...it was lots of fun and we missed mom so much we went back up for Mother's Day! It was a while ago, so I don't feel the need to give much detail on it. Mom did give me a wonderful massage, and we flew kites with Alan & Joe, we even got mom to fly a kite...quite a sight to behold. :)
Topher and I finally got a computer!! Yay!! Now we can have internet access outside of work! We also have just about used up all our gift cards to bed bath and beyond, so our house is chalked full of kitchen utilities and our walls are getting some decoration on them.

School is finally over!! yay!! End of semester was last tuesday! Although this was a wonderful wonderful thing, I'm not sure how wonderful it will be when my grades come...so...I will soak in the wonderful-ness until then. Topher and I were so sick of school and work that we decided we needed a break to reward ourselves for our hard work in school..(or at least thinking about working hard). So, we decided to take a relaxing road trip to see Emily, Jared and the boys...anything but relaxing! (jk em...there was SOME relaxation)
To start off with, I surprised Topher by taking him to Anniversary Inn...we had a gift certificate from our wedding and I thought now was as good a time as any to use it. We stayed in the Caribbean Sea Cave and it was so so neat!! The murals were amazing and the room was just a blast. We were leaving for Colorado the next morning, and wanted to milk the room for all it was worth, so we stayed up until 2:30 in the morning watching movies, playing games, pouring WAY too much bubble bath in the jetted tub and eating cheese cake. :) THAT was fun. The next morning we went and did sealings in the Logan Temple, (so amazing) and afterwards we headed for Colorado.
By day, Topher entertained the boys all day every day, and I helped Em around the kitchen and went shopping. :) And by night, we played games with Em and Jared and watched Gilmore Girls. :) (Topher is so patient with me. :)
We flew kites with the boys, and even got a reluctant Jared to try it..(he was reluctant for about 10 seconds and then had fun!) Emily tried it too...she was cute...but not very sucessful. :) Definitely NOT her fault, the wind was CRAZY! It somersaulted Topher, dragged him from one end of the field to the other, picked me up and threw me to the ground, face first, with a Topher on top of me!
Jared and Em also treated us to Johnny Carino's...oh so yummy...and played Settlers of Zarahemla with us a couple nights.
We had a ton of fun and I am now officially in love with someone (as much if not more ;) than Topher)...baby Caden.
He is by far, the sweetest baby ever. Aaron is just as adorable!!!...but Caden is calm and peaceful and just lets me cuddle him non stop. I wanted to squeeze him til' his head popped off...probably a bad idea...But the thought crossed my mind none the less.
Topher and I officially want a baby...NOW. jk...sorta
So, we were in Colorado Wednesday through Sunday, and when we came home, it was to a lovely toilet papered apartment!!! courtesy of Dad and Karen..and I'm sure Rachel was in on it too...
Furthermore, this was topher's last week at Sweet Candy with me, and now he's leaving to be a lab rat and work at the Huntsman Cancer Institute!
Everyone call and wish him luck that he doesn't blow anything up! And everyone be prepared to see a lot more of Buggy!! Deprived of my husband, I will most likely be lonely and obnoxious, and in need of constant surveillance and visitation by my family!! :)
We love you all lots and want to see most of you!!! (not you dac...you stink...hehe just kidding! i miss you tons!)
I hope everyone is doing well and missing us as much as we do you!