Well, This is our little baby girl.
Sorry it has taken me so long to post any pictures....You can say thanks for these to Alan, he scanned them in for me and did the cool arrows and everything. What a sweet big brother I have.
My favorite picture is by far the profile one. She was so cute when they took that picture. She had been laying on her side, and then she stretched her legs out all the way on my tummy, and then she stretched her arms way above her head on my tummy as well. It was funny because I could feel her do it! I of course wouldn't have known WHAT she was doing had I not seen it, but it was fun to see her move around and relax. After she stretched out, she rolled over to her back and just fell asleep. (I think anyway, Cuz she stopped moving, kicked her legs up and lay her head down.) It was cute.
Anyway. As most of my family knows now, there is a tiny flaw in our perfect little girl. Her heart hasn't formed properly, so only half of it works. Luckily, while she is in utero, it doesn't affect her negatively, I guess my placenta is supplying all her oxygen. But, once she's born, the problem is fatal.
Because of this, the past few days have of course been hard. Not to mention that there have been difficulties for Dacia and for Alan and Jen, and that only compounds the hurt that I know everyone is probably feeling for all the different situations out there.
Something I have come to realize though, (and it only took me a day or two), is just how blessed Topher and I really are. Not an hour has gone by since we found out, that we haven't been called by someone in the family to see how we were doing. Karen rushed to our apartment to keep us company, bought us Taco Bell and brought a sweet Rachel to cheer us up. Dacia came over, even though she was having troubles of her own and kept me company, knowing that no one else could do it better than her. Alan and Jen were immediate to offer to come get me to spend time with me, even though they were having problems as well! Topher's parents brought us K.F.C. and lots of research. Dacia ordered us pizza for lunch the next day and had it delivered to the house. Mom dropped her weekend plans and said she'd be here over the weekend for me. And today, I came into work after another rotten morning and there were beautiful yellow gerbers sitting on my desk from my sweet sister Emi and her adorable boys.
If nothing else, than this has just taught me how important family really is. I have an amazing family that sacrifices so much for me. That goes out of their way however they can, to put a smile on my face or just to let me know I'm loved. I have a family that I know is praying for me throughout the whole of every day. They are so wonderful and supportive and the best friends I could possibly ask for. I also know that I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and Topher very much. I lost count of how many prayers I have said since Tuesday, but even if I was completely devastated and blubbering like a baby, the instant I thought Heavenly Father's name and asked him for his help, I immediately felt comforted. I know he is with me and Topher and that he is watching over Sophie, making sure she's o.k. I know that no matter what happens, she is our baby girl forever and ever, no matter how much time we actually get with her on Earth. This isn't to say by any means that I'm ok with the way things are, and I'm happy go lucky. But like Dacia's "thoughts" blog reminded me, I can have faith that sophie will be healthy and happy, but if not, I can have faith that whatever happens, the Lord is in it, and it will be for my good, Topher's good, and more importantly, for Sophie's good.
Thank you so much to my wonderful family. My sweet, beautiful, wonderful, caring sisters. My perfect and wonderful mommy. My big adorable brother and My loving, and caring dad. Thank you so much to my adorable neice and nephews who are so eager to give me hugs and kisses, (even AARON!!), and thanks so much Karen for your constant friendship and support.
Thanks for your prayers! Please don't stop sending them our way.
Love you all more than you could imagine.
Love Buggy, Topher and Sophie
I had my big ultrasound yesterday. I was lucky enough to have my adorable husband there as well as my sweet Mom. Topher's parents came too and that was not as uncomfortable as I had feared! Instead it was actually really sweet to see how excited they both were. I know it was really special for them.
I will post the ultrasound pictures tonight sometime. But I thought I'd write out the blog now.
Baby girl looks adorable and happy. She moved around stretching her arms and legs against my tummy. She waved at us once or twice. Gave us a thumbs up sign once. Hid from us numerous times. And laid on her side with her hand under her head. She looked adorable and healthy!
Topher and I went out to Old Navy last night and Topher spent 50$ on ADORABLE baby clothes. We bought a little dress, two shirts, a courduroy skirt and the cutest winter coat for her first winter. Topher then took me out to dinner to celebrate baby girl! It was a lot of fun.
This morning, I went through the box of baby clothes mom brought me and I couldn't stop smiling. There were outfits I've seen me wearing in different pictures. And maybe even a few I've seen on Dacia in pictures. It was so special to think that my little girl will get to be in some of those same outfits!!
Before I left for work, I watched the Ultrasound video we'd gotten. It was fun because it was just 5 minutes of her moving around, stretching and some cute profile shots. When we did the 30 minute ultrasound it turned out that the video hadn't been working!! So they did a second ultrasound just for a couple minutes so I could get some baby girl on tape. All in all, it was a great morning.
Then...I came to work and got a call from my Dr. saying that the Ultrasound technician thought something might be amiss with the baby's heart. I have to go in and see a specialist in Ogden. I guess he's really hard to see, especially with the Holidays next week. So my appointment with him is November 27th. I have no idea what they'll find or say, my Dr. didn't really give me a lot of information. But, either way, no matter what happens, she really is a beautiful happy little baby. I just know it.
Since mostly it's just my family that reads this, please pray for Topher's and my little baby girl. Just pray for her health and for her to be happy. That would be wonderful. I know everything will be just fine if she is in everyone's prayers.
I love you all!
Thank you for the prayers that I know are already coming in our direction!
1. My Rock Star Name (fist pet and current car): Kat Tercel
2. My Gangsta Name (fave ice cream flavor and fave cookie): Vanilla Fudge Oreo
3. My "fly" guy/girl name (1st initial of 1st name and 1st 3 letters of last name): A. And...wow that is way super lame
4. My detective name (fave color and fave animal): Blue Siberian Tiger
5. My soap opera name (middle name and city where you were born): Ann Blue Springs
6. My Star Wars Name (1st 3 letters of your last name and 1st 2 letters of your first name): Andal
7. My Superhero name (2nd fave color and fave drink with "The" in front): The Yellow Apple
8. My Nascar name (Grandpas' first names): Carl Juergen
9. My stripper name (name of your fave cologne/perfume and your favorite candy): Romance Gummi Raspberries
10. My Witness Protection Name (Mother's and Father's middle names): Anita Frederika Marion (same as Emi's)